Trying to sleep but can't. Changed my life tonight and am wondering if I trust myself to get me through the next chapter. The uncertainty in life is like a fly landing right on my banoffee pudding. I can't stand not knowing and I can't stand anything that comes between me and my bananarooney.

In bed ... again ... where I seem to spend most my days and will probably be staying in bed as much as possible - it's the only place where I can't feel safe and warm AND I'm listening to Radiohead, I'm a fan alright. For the way I feel this very minute they have to be the best pick of the bunch to match the mood. Remind me of my bud Matt - what a guy. Met him on the first day of uni. Sat with him since then. We were dweedle dee and tweedle dumm. Friend for life. k I'm mumbling and now I don't feel like writing my thoughts down. Might message Mattyboy instead. I'm out. Kbye.